pencil box terbang

hik hik...bila teringat balik peristiwa ini, aku pasti tergelak sorang2...masa nak ambik bm paper 2, ujan turun dgn lebatnya....angin bertiup kencang....tup...pencil box ksygnku terbang melayang...btol...ia terbang...x caye tanya abi dgn ratna. dorang menjadi saksi....terbang dan akhirnya jatuh ke lantai...hahaha...time tu nak gelak kuat2 x bley...tgh exam...lps exam puas aku gelak...hehe...geli hatiku...nsb baik ada pgawas lalu n tolong kutipkan...kalo x, mmg aku disyaki meniru la..ouh tidak...i'm innocent cikgu...hikhik......tu lah aina...sape suruh nama kau ada 'a'kat depan...kan dah kena ddk depan...tepi loji shit lak tu...hik hik....

papepun...aku tetap cintakan sekolahku...

bye!!!

DQ

SPM...1 week 1 day!!!

Been very busy lately...sorry for the unupdated blog...*sigh*...all of us are preparing 4 SPM...sorry...but we promise to post more stories N of course more

DRAMA!!!

lots of love,

A silver lining among the clouds, maybe?

GOD! Why are we all emoing? Is this wat SPM does to you? Is it just SPM or the fact that...
I hate myself and my mind right now. I lost 4kg in 3 days. That is insane. I think I'm going into depression and my parents are super worried about me... When they ask me what's wrong, I don't know what to answer...Coz I myself don't know what's wrong...ARGHH!!!!

Aina, please stay strong and just remember not to hurt yourself because who am I going to call when I'm lost in this world? Talking to you and ratna, always cheers me up...

Ratna, I know it is hard to think positive and to act like everything's alright. But please, believe in yourself. You can do it! I know,right know,it feels like the world might just collapse around you but remember you are not going through this alone... And if you think you are not pretty, I'm sure there is at least one person out there who thinks you are( You know who I'm talkin about)...


Dear friends, I'm so sorry if I have ever hurt you and if I have not been there for you. Just know, that I didn't mean it and I am truly sorry.

Hopefully, our sleepover after SPM, puts everyone in the right mind and smiles back on our faces....

God! In all my life, I think this part has to be one of the worst or THE WORST time in my life.

But before I leave to dwell in my misery,I just want to let a certain someone out there know, that I KNOW YOUR NAME! And thank you for that, cause that has put a smile on my face( for a reason, that I too don't know)


What is wrong with me,
Buzibee...

why????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i knw in my previous post i told my angels that they can do anything.. but sadly, i cant say that to me... spm is nearin... panic took over my mind.. now, i get upset and emo faster thn usual.but some of my frens dun get it... well, i

cant just sit down n pretend like ntg happen.. my life is so stress now, if my frens dun understand me, who else going to? why do some of my frens think that i am being vry emo so fast...well, i just wana say, IM STILL LEARNIN

TO SURVIVE WITHOUT BLADE! im gona need more time.. i will realy apprreciate if everyone would understand me... im nt like last time, i will be back to normal, after the blade take in charge.. im learnin now, and

dun u all, ,my frens to live without it? i need all ur understandin and support along the way... and pls dun tell me bout my food. i knw im wastin food, so i dun eat and thn u guys still scold me.. its like if i eat or no also i kena scoldin

or sayin frm u all...why dun u all understand? and u all think im insane to starve myself to look thin.. well, its important for me... i wana look think n pretty next to my sisters... i knw my frens all, dun have this prob cuz all of u

all look like babes.. but me no! its important for me, to score well in spm n look good and everything cuz all these gona help me build confidence... im nt sayin that u HAVE to be with me, my dear frens but at least leave me alone... i

need time. pls oh pls understand me.. i mite look vry sportin n all but im vry sensitive inside my heart...dun do this to me. PLEASE....

BY,

A VERY UPSET BLONDE

i'm emoing

2 weeks b4 spm...i am really emoing...i'm losing weight...my tutor said i lose my chubbyness...n i just fought with my #$%^ sista... thx to ratna 4 being there 4 me... lets read wat we fought about

me: can u plz clean the kitchen b4 mummy comes back...karang mama mgamuk
$%^#: ok, i'll do it.
..............
daddy: seluar sape ni?
me: $%#@ pants. it was there, on the sofa, 4 a while
%$#@: ko asal? baru wat kerja umah skit nak merungut
me: aku malas ar nak gado dgn ko sbb ko PREGNANT
$%#@: asal lak aku pregnant x bley gado?

............c? dia yg nak gado dulu... prg bsr pun bermula....

me: ko taw x, ko balik umah, ko buat umah ni mcm hotel taw x? ko balik kerja dgn suami ko, taw makan, naik atas, pastu tido. ko ingat mama tu apa? kuli ko pe?
$%^#: eh, aku ada tolong ek... ko igt ko sorang je tolong
me: hek taik idung ko la, ko tolong. sampai baju suami ko pun baba yg tolong ampai n lipat ean...
$%#@: dah aku krja, aku x de kat umah, mane sempat aku wat. agypun aku x suruh pun baba wat.
me: ko mmg. krja kat umah ni jgn arap la ko nak wat
$%#@: masa ko kecik dulu, sape yg wat suma ni. aku pun spm la. tp aku wat suma tu

.....in my thoughts 'ko ambik arts...mmg la bahalol, suma ko blaja kat arts bley apply kat dapur...' aku ambik science...

#$%@: mama siap pukul aku agy... ko nasib baik taw ko x kena
me: ko kuang ajar mmg la ko kena pukul. cuba ko baik mcm aku, surenya x kena...hahaha...n tu nasib aku ar...ko je yg malang...
$%#@: skrg ni nsb ko la yg kena balik
me: asal lak? nasib aku n i wont make it happen...i'm not like you...

bla....bla...bla...byk adengan censored....maap..hehehe

bro: dah2. x nak wat sudah.
me: masalahnya bkn soal nak wat ke x nak wat... mama balik2 mrh2.
korang x taw. aku dgn kokyah slalu kena taw x? korang taw balik umah makanan dah tersedia ada. x yah pk nak msk pape. pdhal aku dgn kokyah slalu kena pk apa korang nak mkn. aku gila taw x kena mrh je...gila!!!( dis time i really shout n cried...i really felt like killing that $#@^ bitch)
$%#@: BGUSLA...hahaha
me: wei...ko bla la dr umah ni... X TAHU MALU!!! dah khwn setahun...dah nak ada anak...tp duduk agy umah mak bpk...xtaw malu lgsg
%$#@: asal aku lak nak kena bla...bkn ko ke slalu ckp ko x suka ddk umah ni...g la lari
me: ko la bla...
#$%@: ko g la BUNUH DIRI sekali...kalo dah gila sgt
me: jgn cabar aku
$%#@: wat la... make sure ko mengucap dulu sblm mati...

....................... i ran into my room n slammed the door...
n i cal ratna....thx hun

jika anda lihat situasi ini, saya mcm kena histeria...btol...x tipu...i was shouting smpai jiran sblah pun bley dgr...
ni kerana saya sgt tension akan SPM.. i really changed. i dont really talk that much but when i talk, u wish u never met me..hak!!

n to my #$@! bitch sista...thx 4 all dat...if u want me to kill myself, FINE!!! i'll do it but i make sure i kill u first...

signing off: DQ