FINALLY!!!!!

ok so first of all, my true and sincere apology to all of u all....i knw it most be borin that there was no DRAMA in the blog.... but no worries, sweet hearts, the BLONDE is back with more dramas.. ok so whr shall i begin.. too many things happen and now ni i bloggin...haiz haiz... actually i wana talk bout my baby now...but i feel like i need to show my supports to my wonderful frens.. my baby can wait(sry nithi)... so wads wrong wid abi n aina??? am i missin out something u guys... well, heres something to make my angels happy..no matter wad happen, im always here for u guys so dun be sad k...

remember dat day, whn we were playin true or dare thingy thn ended up confessin stuff.... that day was just so touchy...believe it or not i cried after coming back home.. i was just so touched by the fact i have true frens who got my back..

abi- u r a wonderful gril who can do wonders in this world, there is a lot to be learn frm u.. u are an inspiration girl, always going around wid positive thoughts.. its hard to be positive all the time, but u make it a habit to be positive... and abi, thnx for always saying 'ratna, think positive la, u wun fail'... you believed in me..thanx

aina- haha, wad am i to say... whenever i look at you, i feel more brave.. you are a girl wif problems like me, but u dun let these things to bring u down, at least u dun cut urself like i do! each time i look at you, i just admire your braveness and how you still excel in studies.. you are always thr whn a fren needs you, you dun let abi or me down.. you teach me stuff whn i am so blur. not only that, u care for me too.. its a gift to have u and abi as a fren...

i still remember whn u two come visit me in hospital..it was so good, i mean i wish i could jump out of the bed and hug you all that time... i was that happy... it was like, whn i need all the support i can, u two were thr.. and the time whr u two, snatched away my cold drinks! haha, u two were so concerned for me.. im seriously thankful to god, for giving me frens like you..i will always love you two(yaya, i love u too, nithi, dun get jealous)... best frens forever! girl power rule!!!!!!!!!!!

by,BLONDE..

Why

Why do you think those who you can trust betray you?
Why, if they care so much do they leave you and go?
Not only go but go and have fun without you
They call themselves, whatever they call themselves
and leave you to believe that they will be there forever

But once they are gone, they do come back
But the distance apart
has made me more aware of the true colours that lurk underneath
but deep down inside
I want to believe that they truly will be with me
But hurt is painful and may never heal
But why is it happening to me?

Whispers I'm never allowed to hear
Secrets I'm never told
Why, is it because of who I am?
Is it because I'm like this
that hate is brought upon me by those I care for or try to care for
Then, why do they promise and break that promise
why do they promise to go have fun with you
but change the plan to fit their need

Why do they plan these things weeks and weeks before
but then change it and never even bother to ask if you can go
or if it even is okay with you when they go out without you

It is okay that they change their plan
and it is truly okay that they go without me
but why can't they just say a single sorry
to make everything better

I wanted to speak my mind, many a time
but I just couldn't because I cannot hurt the bond we share
Why can't I break the bond like they have?

My opinion is just as important as theirs, right
but I just couldn't let out my feelings
I'm just calm because I dare not let out my feelings
I don't know why...
but...

-Buzibee-

i dont want to be emo...but u made me...

this month...
i'm really emoing...
only the closest friends knew my condition...
this month i loss 5kg
next month?
i dunno...

i dont feel like eating anymore...
every time i c food, i feel nausea...
i tried to ask 4 help from my loved ones...
but...
people change...
i may look happy on the outside...
but inside...only God knows...
pray 4 me plz...

where is this happy girl?


signing off...
DQ

New grading system

I am here to release my frustration. Nearly a month away from SPM, our grading system has changed! URGHH!!! I had mentally prepared myself to get all 11A1's. But now, what am I supposed to get? All A plus or just A's or A minuses? * Screams*

I don't even know what is an A plus, A or A minus. Does this mean more people get A's or does this mean less people get scholarships? coz I need a scholarship...URGHH!!!!

If you have no idea what I am talking about, here is the article from STAR Newspaper...

New grade of A+ for SPM

PETALING JAYA: A new grading system for the Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia (SPM) will be implemented from this year.

Education director-general Tan Sri Alimuddin Mohd Dom said the change would provide a detailed breakdown of excellent candidates who obtained grade As in the examination.

“The change means there will now be a new grade of A+. Previously, the highest grade possible in the SPM was 1A,” he said in a statement yesterday.

Under the present system, students are graded as 1A, 2A, 3B, 4B, 5C, 6C, 7D, 8E and 9G while the new grades would be from A+ to G (see chart).

Alimuddin said the change was based on feedback from various quarters that the existing system did not provide a more detailed breakdown of excellent students.

“The change in the grading system will enable more qualified candidates to be chosen for training programmes and new scholarships, such as the one announced by the Prime Minister recently,” he said.

Prime Minister Datuk Seri Najib Tun Razak said in June that a new category of Public Services Department scholarships would be introduced next year based purely on merit, regardless of race.

Alimuddin said the Cabinet approved the change in the grading system last month.

“This will not affect the examination at all as it only involves a change in the grades given,” he said.

He said school principals have been directed to explain the new grading system to students sitting for the SPM this year.

There you have it... What am I supposed to do?
This is so distracting...Well, at least it is another excuse for me to be distracted from studying...
Which reminds me I should go back to studying...

In give or take a month, I will be sitting in a hall like this for my final school examination...





I wish I was back in Form 3...relaxing and having fun
Even though, terpaksa duduk for PMR that year, I had so much fun!

Or working backstage at the Jubilee Concert last year... We are such a bunch of posers
(From l-r : Sallini, Ratna, Aina, Abi and Lisha)

Until next time( whenever that maybe),
Buzibee