FOOD FOR THOUGHT:Are we really just Simply Us? Or are our lives much more complicated than that? I would go with the latter. Life being much more complicated than what it may appear.
hi sugar... how are you? aina, abi n me are vry extremely sry.. we werent there whn u needed us.. but u din tell us too.. why din tell us you had prob.. are we not your fren... just so because we goin college, we nt that busy until we gt no time to lend our fren a shoulder to cry on..i am actually upset la... i cant believe u din even msg n tell u were in so much prob... this blog suppose to update us wid each others life..abi n me realise it d n we sry.. we wana be in ur life too, aina..you our girl... well as you can see, life not easy for me too but i am holdin on cause i have frens... i hope you will tell us if you got anythin botherin u. pls dun distance yourself frm us... remember nothing can come between us, not even guys... n aina, u knw we have some problems... so i definitely understand you... aina at least think that u are more fortunate.. few months u can leave hse d.. i cant leave unless i get scholarship... you r a amazing girl... n god will always be thr for you...lighten up..happy valentine's day sugar..tc..sry
a very concern blonde...
today started with a fall as i woke up and find out that the paip in kitchen broke... i ran to off the paip, n me bein blonde, slipped on floor n fall... but i thought this nt goin to influence my day... i got ready n went to college...dressed vry nice for the date after class... in class, i was the saviour for few frens, as they cleared last minutes doubt with me bout economics.. now i thought maybe my life aint that bad.. i kinda smart....thn after test, had lil discussions with frens bout assignments n all.. thn i walked frm 5th floor all the way to intima hall in my hooker heels.. i saw guna thr..felt happy.. after sendin crystal back, guna n me went to a&w to makan.. we talked n laughed n managed to have lil disagreement n more laughters... thn we finally decide to leave.. it was burnin like hell in the car, so we just sat in car with the door open.. thn suddenly he took out a teddy bear n gave me(valentine's day gift).. i felt touched, tears tried to flow creatin dramas.. bt i manage to fight back the tears... thn we move on.. we had a lil chit chat in car...i was still huggin my teddy bear... thn once we reach college n parked, i told him close eyes n kissed him on the cheeks thn whn he opened his eyes he kissed me back... it was all so baeutiful.. i came back hime being happy n excited... thn just whn i was about to blog this happy day of my life, god decided to take a twist as he always do.. family fights.. ppl practically yellin at each other n blamin each other.. seriously, is this wad ppl call family.. will this be the last event in my life if i die tomoro.. is this wad gona be in my mind if i die? thn i remembered family problems plus sisters family problem.. is family always quarellin? i knw that family gt prob bt do they always have problem? n is it ok to hate ur family members... i mite be the youngest bt i mite be most matured in family.. i too have personal disagrees with my family.. bt i nvr show them, cuz its ok to hurt myself, but its a sin to hurt others. we gt no rights to hurt others.. if i started to be like others thn i would practically be the family's enemy.. i had disagree moments wid each family member that still make me cry till today:
*dad- nvr a gud father(if giving money n educatin kids can be father thn i take back my words). tellin own daughter "dun forget u still eat food frm my money" (do fathers say that) are we suppose to payback ?
*mum-always get emotional n get things wrong sometimes(not her faults though)
*1st sis- the reason i doin accounts(tii this moment i hate accounts wid all my heart)... but i wanted to prove to her i can, all those incident happen last years..only god knows how much i cried.. i will nvr love accounts bt i will do thousand times better thn anyone to show that i am capable! n that i drop accounts because of u n nt that i cant cope up..nobody understood that i need time last year
*2nd sis- always gettin angry n comin into my personal business(by gettin angry she is tearin everyone's heart &im old enuf to think rational, u dun have to check on my bf or my guy frens)
3rd sis- one word she said n till today i feel like dyin ("ratna, u think u makin mum happy? you r being bad child, u knw")... i definitely din knw i was dat horrible..n everytime i tried to dress up nicer, she still look prettier.. she smarter n parents love her since she follows wad they say..parents were always unfair to me... she fail driving test like a million time, n they still paid for her bt for me, they din even bother signin me up(they tell my horoscope nt bad, honestly as long as i stay in this house, my horoscope will nvr be gud. so wads the diff?) both of us dress up n first thing mum say "latha look nice in any baju la"...(i always feel so 'gud' hearin that)....
so wad u expect me to do? honestly nowadays even cuttin myself doesnt hurt cuz the pain at heart more hurtin... i could feel the heart being twisted n turned.... i love my guy, bt nt only he can make me happy..thats obvious frm today.. my family has big impact on me... no matter how hard i try to be happy, no point cuz endin is nvr happy...its a curse to my family.. im pretty sure i only told only 20% of wads in my heart, if i tell more, thn i probably need a caunselor d! there is more in my life that not anyone knows... i would like to tell only one thing, we mite die any time... so lets not make life hell for others... its better to suffer urself thn makin others suffer.... ppl makes mistakes bt lets not make a drama out of dat... just leave it n move on...
-the blonde who wishes that she will nvr wake up after tonight-
Okay...
This is the best part...
I have been staring at this screen for the last 30 minutes...and I still can't think of anything to write...
So, I am doing this because I don't want the blog to die...
I care about it unlike some people(here's a hint: One loves Drama and the other, I thank God did not colour her hair Blonde)...
Hehe...Just joking guys...Please don't take that to heart...
I just really don't know wat to do...
Btw, AVATAR is an amazing movie. I loved it...Absolutely, LOVED it...
K, I am gonna sign off now...
So sorry for the horrible post,
Buzibee
College life.
what can i say about it?
It has only been three days,
and it feels like forever.
I am already exhausted.
Making new friends,
not that difficult.
But, of course
i do wish my bffs
were still with me.
then, classes would be all
the more fun.
One thing I cannot believe
is that i saw him there
doing the same course.
It is as if destiny/faith,
call it whatever you want,
is teasing me.
Anyway,
getting back to college life,
there is nothing much to say, really
just that I hope to have lots of fun
and score amazingly good grades
and makes lots of good friends
and join the most interesting clubs
and just have a really great year!
now a college student,
buzibee
