CoulDn't BE a better DAy!

so now lets see......few of my...wait...most of my post was like so extremly emoooooooo(not my fault, blame the PERSON). but today, no more emo emo all. today iim sooooo vry happppyyyy.......although i cnt talk today at all(gt stupid ulser la. damn pain...sob...sob). so wad should i say? where should i start? actually, i dun knw wad to say....i am so happy until no words to describe wad happen. tqtqtqtqtqtqtqtqtq.

love,blonde

SIGNS are shown already.....

wad can i say...

the sign is shown already...

but what awaits as...

the result of the sign is...

broken heart...

not that i never knew the truth...

but...

heart refused to accept...

maybe the hope set was too high...

it resulted in broken heart...

but...

why..

did he have to be nice to me???

however...

i asked for the sign...

so i will pay for my past now...

by,

broken blonde

FakE taLKs...

everytime I talk to you...

heart flutters with thousands and thousands of butterfly

but

deep in a corner of it

evil scarying voices threatening

it says that the dream is ONLY a dream

but

when i wake up

it doesn't seem like a dream

in fact it felt

GREAT, AWESOME, INCREDIBLY

honestly

no words can describe it

but

today i realized

dreams are dreams

all his words

all his laughter

all his jokes to make me laugh

it was just words

it meant nothing

nothing for him

but it meant everything for me

more than everything

all the fake talks u had with me

was not fake for me

it was more than real to me

what do i have to do

to make this real for you too

do i have to be fake

do i have to change myself

will you take this for real than

i will change if that is what it takes

please show a sign that

this could be real for both of us

and

not

FAKE!!!

i love you with all my

HEART

LOve,

BlonDe

Sheikh Muszhaphar Syukor

Recently,

i read a book...
Menggapai Bintang..
by .....
*drum roll*
Sheikh Muszhaphar Syukor

thanks to Puteri

This book is so inspiring...
REALLY!!!
i was amazed by the pictures...
hehehe...(abi knows the story)

Anyway,
In the book...he wrote...
"Kehidupan bukan sekadar mencari pasangan hidup, berkahwin, mendapat anak dan menjadi tua. Seseorang mestilah mempunyai TUJUAN hidup"

Btol X?

I quickly told my sister...

Me: Hey, check this out...(showing what he said)
Mira: Eheh, ye la...betul apa yg dia ckp tu..
Me: I know!!! it's true kan? Orang kita selalu ckp psl KAHWIN jek...
Mira: Pdnla dia x kahwin lagi...hehehe
Me: Hampeh btol hang ni!!!

It's actually true wat he said..
ye la...
ppl always thought of having a grand wedding and marry the LOVE of their life...
but actually
there are more important things to do instead of getting married...
of course...
different people have different perceptions...
but u see...
life is at the fullest when u get to achive sumthing that will make ppl proud of u
and ppl will respect u for that?
sumting for u to ponder

NOW
i'm so bersemangat to sit 4 my SPM...
that's the spirit Aina...!!!

this book also made me think of wat are my Goals in life...
kalau x de TUJUAN, arah mane kita nak lalu...
btol x murid-murid?
hehehe

so i listed out my goals...
x de la banyak mane...
tp sekadar menaikkan semangat untuk mendapat 9A1 dalam
SPM...
its enough...

HERE GOES

MY goals in life...

1
Be a DOCTOR
(Insya-Allah)
Do u see me in this position????

2
Must join MERCY M'sia
(i want to feel how the people there suffered)
wat if we were in this position?
saya x cukup kuat utk menghadapinya...

3
membahagiakan ibu bapa saya
(take care of them)

4
be a calm, sensible, and happy person


"when we were small, it's a must to dream...
when we grew, it's a must to fulfill the childhood dreams"
-Aina-

that's all by now....
i'll add more..
if it strike my mind one day...

till then.....

Love: Drama Queen

Oklah?

Haih...
Who knew writing about my future would be so hard? I mean seriously...
Oklah...It is hard writing about my career plans mainly because I HAVE NO CAREER PLANS!
Oklah...So, i have a rough idea of what I want to be...but I am sometimes fickled minded
Oklah...Most of the time I am fickled minded, so I can and may still continue to change my ambitions.
Oklah...I want to be a lawyer or an accountant...
Oklah...Most probably a lawyer but what kind of lawyer, janganlah tanya sekarang. there are way to many options to choose from.
Oklah...But what I really want to do as an individual is Save the world(Yeah, right!)...I just want to bring justice and save the innocent(God, I sound like Superman!)
Oklah...And I do want to work with the UNITED NATIONS and help bring the world closer to world peace
Oklah...It would be so cool to work at UN HQ...I can just picture myself working there...

That's the UN HQ!

Oklah...The other place I could picture myself working in is a courtroom...That would also be Cool!

I could be arguing there one day!

Oklah...I could also have a really cool office

I could be conducting board meetings here...

Oklah...I should stop dreaming about the places I could work in the future and pay attention to the present. Like focus on getting 11A1's in SPM...
Haih...

Buzibee...

love STORY

We were both young when I first saw youI close my eyesAnd the flashback startsI'm standing thereOn a balcony in summer airSee the lightsSee the party, the ball gownsI see you make your way through the crowdAnd say hello, little did I knowThat you were Romeo, you were throwing pebblesAnd my daddy said stay away from JulietAnd I was crying on the staircaseBegging you please don't go, and I saidRomeo take me somewhere we can be aloneI'll be waiting all there's left to do is runYou'll be the prince and I'll be the princessIt's a love story baby just say yesSo I sneak out to the garden to see youWe keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knewSo close your eyesEscape this town for a little while'Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letterAnd my daddy said stay away from JulietBut you were everything to meI was begging you please don't go and I saidRomeo take me somewhere we can be aloneI'll be waiting all there's left to do is runYou'll be the prince and I'll be the princessIt's a love story baby just say yesRomeo save me, they try to tell me how to feelThis love is difficult, but it's realDon't be afraid, we'll make it out of this messIt's a love story baby just say yesOh ohI got tired of waitingWondering if you were ever coming aroundMy faith in you is fadingWhen I met you on the outskirts of town, and I saidRomeo save me I've been feeling so aloneI keep waiting for you but you never comeIs this in my head? I don't know what to thinkHe knelt to the ground and pulled out a ringAnd said, marry me JulietYou'll never have to be aloneI love you and that's all I really knowI talked to your dad, go pick out a white dressIt's a love story baby just say yesOh, oh, oh, oh'Cause we were both young when I first saw you

ScArEd 2 MOOve OONn....

i am scared, literally scared...

i wana move on but wad if heart break awaits me...

it is the first time, my existence was realized...

but....

what if it is a misunderstanding...

what if i am over exageratin....

what if dreams stays dream....

what is the answer to my ques?????

should i move on....

if this is not a wrong move...

please show me a sign....

i will be waitin...

LOVE, BLONDE