Simply Us

I know i've been away for quite a while...

2010-03-04T18:26:00.000-08:00

so pls 4give me my friends...i was busy with work n family thing...i did not have the time to update our blog...sorry so much about that

1.btw, spm result is coming out this 11th of march rite? aren't all of u terrified and scared? tell
me about it...my mum dah awal2 apply cuti...news spread so fast...

2.ok...here's the plan...to make sure that all of us will take our result on the same time, we shall
wait 4 theeba k? she called me n she said she was crying the whole night thinking about spm
result...i guess me n theeba aren't the strong one here... the tough gurl(ratna, abi, lisha n
privina) should wait 4 us k? we take our results together...that's wat frens r for...

3. CONGRATZ to ratna who did so well in her test...i'm so proud of u blonde! maybe dis is wat u
should be doing, instead of learning science...

4.so wat's up with me? i'm learning how to drive...n fought a lot with my sis. hehehe...since i'm involved in her business, a lot of times she raised her voice to me... but i'm immune to it already...don't bother...hahaha

5. ouh..ouh...b4 i forget, i thought of watching ALICE IN WONDERLAND afta we take our results...nak x? ask ur parents k? dah lama x hang out with all of u...miss u a lot...

scary kan?

till then...bb..
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WooHoo!

2010-02-26T23:43:00.000-08:00

FOOD FOR THOUGHT:Are we really just Simply Us? Or are our lives much more complicated than that? I would go with the latter. Life being much more complicated than what it may appear.

But before I forget, I just want to wish Blonde a really big CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

on doing extremely, extremely well on her ECONOMICS test.

I am so proud of you!!!

Now, I have to go and study for my exams so I can do almost as well as Blonde...

Till later,

Buzibee

this post is only for aina, abi dun be jealous!hehe

2010-02-14T01:55:00.000-08:00

hi sugar... how are you? aina, abi n me are vry extremely sry.. we werent there whn u needed us.. but u din tell us too.. why din tell us you had prob.. are we not your fren... just so because we goin college, we nt that busy until we gt no time to lend our fren a shoulder to cry on..i am actually upset la... i cant believe u din even msg n tell u were in so much prob... this blog suppose to update us wid each others life..abi n me realise it d n we sry.. we wana be in ur life too, aina..you our girl... well as you can see, life not easy for me too but i am holdin on cause i have frens... i hope you will tell us if you got anythin botherin u. pls dun distance yourself frm us... remember nothing can come between us, not even guys... n aina, u knw we have some problems... so i definitely understand you... aina at least think that u are more fortunate.. few months u can leave hse d.. i cant leave unless i get scholarship... you r a amazing girl... n god will always be thr for you...lighten up..happy valentine's day sugar..tc..sry

a very concern blonde...

nice days turns out ugly...always happen to me..

2010-02-11T03:52:00.000-08:00

today started with a fall as i woke up and find out that the paip in kitchen broke... i ran to off the paip, n me bein blonde, slipped on floor n fall... but i thought this nt goin to influence my day... i got ready n went to college...dressed vry nice for the date after class... in class, i was the saviour for few frens, as they cleared last minutes doubt with me bout economics.. now i thought maybe my life aint that bad.. i kinda smart....thn after test, had lil discussions with frens bout assignments n all.. thn i walked frm 5th floor all the way to intima hall in my hooker heels.. i saw guna thr..felt happy.. after sendin crystal back, guna n me went to a&w to makan.. we talked n laughed n managed to have lil disagreement n more laughters... thn we finally decide to leave.. it was burnin like hell in the car, so we just sat in car with the door open.. thn suddenly he took out a teddy bear n gave me(valentine's day gift).. i felt touched, tears tried to flow creatin dramas.. bt i manage to fight back the tears... thn we move on.. we had a lil chit chat in car...i was still huggin my teddy bear... thn once we reach college n parked, i told him close eyes n kissed him on the cheeks thn whn he opened his eyes he kissed me back... it was all so baeutiful.. i came back hime being happy n excited... thn just whn i was about to blog this happy day of my life, god decided to take a twist as he always do.. family fights.. ppl practically yellin at each other n blamin each other.. seriously, is this wad ppl call family.. will this be the last event in my life if i die tomoro.. is this wad gona be in my mind if i die? thn i remembered family problems plus sisters family problem.. is family always quarellin? i knw that family gt prob bt do they always have problem? n is it ok to hate ur family members... i mite be the youngest bt i mite be most matured in family.. i too have personal disagrees with my family.. bt i nvr show them, cuz its ok to hurt myself, but its a sin to hurt others. we gt no rights to hurt others.. if i started to be like others thn i would practically be the family's enemy.. i had disagree moments wid each family member that still make me cry till today:
*dad- nvr a gud father(if giving money n educatin kids can be father thn i take back my words). tellin own daughter "dun forget u still eat food frm my money" (do fathers say that) are we suppose to payback ?

*mum-always get emotional n get things wrong sometimes(not her faults though)

*1st sis- the reason i doin accounts(tii this moment i hate accounts wid all my heart)... but i wanted to prove to her i can, all those incident happen last years..only god knows how much i cried.. i will nvr love accounts bt i will do thousand times better thn anyone to show that i am capable! n that i drop accounts because of u n nt that i cant cope up..nobody understood that i need time last year

*2nd sis- always gettin angry n comin into my personal business(by gettin angry she is tearin everyone's heart &im old enuf to think rational, u dun have to check on my bf or my guy frens)

3rd sis- one word she said n till today i feel like dyin ("ratna, u think u makin mum happy? you r being bad child, u knw")... i definitely din knw i was dat horrible..n everytime i tried to dress up nicer, she still look prettier.. she smarter n parents love her since she follows wad they say..parents were always unfair to me... she fail driving test like a million time, n they still paid for her bt for me, they din even bother signin me up(they tell my horoscope nt bad, honestly as long as i stay in this house, my horoscope will nvr be gud. so wads the diff?) both of us dress up n first thing mum say "latha look nice in any baju la"...(i always feel so 'gud' hearin that)....

so wad u expect me to do? honestly nowadays even cuttin myself doesnt hurt cuz the pain at heart more hurtin... i could feel the heart being twisted n turned.... i love my guy, bt nt only he can make me happy..thats obvious frm today.. my family has big impact on me... no matter how hard i try to be happy, no point cuz endin is nvr happy...its a curse to my family.. im pretty sure i only told only 20% of wads in my heart, if i tell more, thn i probably need a caunselor d! there is more in my life that not anyone knows... i would like to tell only one thing, we mite die any time... so lets not make life hell for others... its better to suffer urself thn makin others suffer.... ppl makes mistakes bt lets not make a drama out of dat... just leave it n move on...

-the blonde who wishes that she will nvr wake up after tonight-

2010-02-04T21:48:00.000-08:00

Okay...
This is the best part...
I have been staring at this screen for the last 30 minutes...and I still can't think of anything to write...

So, I am doing this because I don't want the blog to die...
I care about it unlike some people(here's a hint: One loves Drama and the other, I thank God did not colour her hair Blonde)...
Hehe...Just joking guys...Please don't take that to heart...
I just really don't know wat to do...

Btw, AVATAR is an amazing movie. I loved it...Absolutely, LOVED it...

K, I am gonna sign off now...

So sorry for the horrible post,
Buzibee

2010-01-15T00:01:00.001-08:00

College life.
what can i say about it?
It has only been three days,
and it feels like forever.
I am already exhausted.

Making new friends,
not that difficult.
But, of course
i do wish my bffs
were still with me.
then, classes would be all
the more fun.

One thing I cannot believe
is that i saw him there
doing the same course.
It is as if destiny/faith,
call it whatever you want,
is teasing me.

Anyway,
getting back to college life,
there is nothing much to say, really
just that I hope to have lots of fun
and score amazingly good grades
and makes lots of good friends
and join the most interesting clubs
and just have a really great year!

now a college student,
buzibee

aku sgt bz...

2010-01-03T17:11:00.000-08:00

mulai 1 jan 2010...aku telah mula bekerja....
harap maaf...blog yg x update
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what am i doin to myslef?

2009-12-22T20:16:00.000-08:00

so its official....im possesed and no doubts bout it.. signin up for course that i wouldnt even dream

of doin and college that wasnt even in my list, not even the last option.. wad got into me? i dun

knw.. guess the "u need a secure job and money in future" got me to do somethin i dun like...but

honestly, if money that matters, i could be a prostitute and earn frm now onwards. i mean get

real! if money that all matters? what are we suppose to do with hearts and dreams and living

life? ok so maybe doin accounts is good for myself but nobody realize the problem with me and

accounts.. its just that wad happen b4 haunts me... i drop accounts in form 5 by giving reason i

cant cope up! thats 101% lie! of course i can do, i mean i not dat dumb la u knw... but those word

said and all.. haiz, i feel like a dumb everytime in class...yes,yes, my sis the one taught me

accounts but wad she din realise is i need time... i am trying to learn 2 year syllabus in 1

yea..thats hard! so i memang need tiime... and i felt stupid in class whn my frens can do better,

they will be probably in the 10th ques whn i still battlin through 1st quest.. and everyone seem

to move on without thinkin how i would have felt.. i felt dumb stupid helpless and worthless!i

actually felt like even a cockroach have life thn i do... i knw everyone tried to help me.. but its nt

helpin... i mean, sisters sayin do accounts, and dad sayin do law..but nobody actually asked wad i

like.. ok so maybe they did ask but reasons was given to cancel out my choice.. ok, i still stand

strong but i dun expect another long line of lecture of wad i suppose to do after enter college.

study hard, perform well, take care, dun behave wrong.... goddamn it! obviously i knw.. you knw

wad i wanted to hear "dun worry, of course can do. its easy. u sure can perform. im sure u will

succeed"... and these were not even in the between.. and even if they said it, they probabbly din

mean it... how am i to do accounts whn i dun have ppls trust that i can do it... how am i to do, if

they dun knw the real reason why i dropped accounts in form 5.. i cried every nite, thinkin bout

this..and everyone just think that i not capable of doin accounts...u knw, the feelin of ppl lookin

down on u.. its definitely not nice... and what bout the time, i gave up my outin so my sis go out

and in the end i was be blame... sigh.. and wad about the time, i broke my trophy that i gt for

pmr and my certs which i tore, whn my sister told me that i got straight Aa's in pmr cuz im

lucky... r u kiddin me? lucky? lucky, is that all i wana hear? pathetic aite.. n bout today, my gf's

im sry i cant go for outin.. i seriously was lookin forward to it actually, although im broke.... i

needed to talk. weird aite, i thought life will be ok after spm but only god knw that knw ni d hell

start... honestly, i wish i can stop breathin, the day we stop breathin, the problem will stop...

unwanted on earth, BLONDE

fashionista

2009-12-21T22:08:00.000-08:00

post ini ditulis bukan kerana aku ingin menjadi pereka fesyen...ouh tidak sama sekali...menjahit pun terkial kial...inikan mereka baju...hehe...post ini sebenarnya ingin ku luahkan perasaan ku terhadap persepsi masyarakat terhadap wanita bertudung...aku kadang2 rasa hampa dengan masyarakat yg memandang serong terhadap perempuan bertudung...ya...mmg prmpuan bertudung...berhias diri agak limited...tetapi jika pandai mengenakan gaya...mmg nampak cantik dan ayu...

Yuna (the indie star) said:

"MULA-mula saya naik pentas ramai yang 'boo' bila tengok penampilan saya dengan bertudung. Ada juga yang kata kalau nak nyanyi nasyid, lebih baik balik. Ejekan itu membuat saya sedikit gementar kerana saya memilih cara berbeza daripada kumpulan muzik indie yang ada.

Majalah Al Islam, edisi Mac 2009"Tapi bila saya mula bermain gitar dan menyanyi, ramai yang terlopong. Penonton mula diam dan memberi tumpuan kepada nyanyian saya. Itulah permulaan muncul Yuna."

di sini...bukanlah ingin mengagungkan yuna... tetapi ia hanya sebagai contoh...tudung itu wajib bagi setiap prmpuan muslim....tetapi tidak bermakna seseorang yg bertudung...tidak cantik, tidak pandai , tidak berani dan berfikiran sempit...tepuk dada tanya selera...

ramai kawan2ku yg berlainan agama bertanya knp wanita muslim wajib memakai tudung...hurm..pada mulanya aku pun tidak fhm...bdk kecil...apalah yg taw sgt kan? setelah meningkat dewasa, baru ku tahu. byk sebab sebenarnya...antaranya ialah:

A commandment of the Quran and Sunna
lowering the gaze of men
guarding the private parts
not striking the feet on the ground so as to give knowledge of what is hidden
not displaying the beauty beyond "what is apparent of it" except husband, father, brothers and sons
extending the headcovering to cover the bosom
drawing the outergarment close around

Lowering the gaze means not looking at what is forbidden to be seen of others. Guarding the private parts means that only the husband is allowed to see or touch them. Not giving knowledge of what is hidden means not posturing or strutting around so as to jangle hidden jewelry or make men think about hidden body parts.
"what is apparent of it" refers to the face and hands.

yg ku paham...sebenarnya memakai tudung adalah utk:
*mengelakkan fitnah...
*mengelakkan lelaki drpd memandang bahagian tubuh yg boleh menaikkan nafsu mereka
*membendung drpd kes rogol dan zina
*sebagai keistimewaan kepada kaum suami kerana bahagian tubuh isteriya hanya dpt dilihat
oleh dia seorang
* memelihara maruah wanita drpd dijaja sebegitu
dan byk lagi....

anyway, this post hanya utk memberi informasi kepada anda yg sedang membaca...tidak ada niat lain utk mendiskriminasi sesapepun... maaf jika terasa...wallahua'lam

signing off
DQ

Honouring Us

2009-12-20T22:35:00.000-08:00

Heard this song from BANDSLAM. Thought some of the lyrics might resemble our past and our future. It's from HONOR SOCIETY... Please ignore the parts where it says the girls we've kissed and all... coz cross our hearts and hope to die, we have never done anything like that and never will. :)

To my favorite teacher told me never give up
To my fifth grade crush Who I thought I really loved
To the guys I've missed and the girls we've kissed
Where are you now
To my ex-best friends Don't know how we grew apart
To my favorite band Sing along in my car
To the face I see in my memory
Where are you now
Where are you now?
Cause I'm thinking of you
You showed me how
How to live like I do If it wasn't for you I would never be who I am
To my first girlfriend I thought for sure was the one
To my last girlfriend
Sorry that I screwed it up
To the ones I loved Didn't show it enough
Where are you now
Where are you now
Cause I'm thinking of you
You showed me how
How to live like I do If it wasn't for you I would never be who I am
I know we'll never see those days again
And things will never be that way again
But that's just how it goes
People change but I know I won't forget you
To the ones who came
Who we're there from the start
To the love that left
And took a piece of my heart
To the few who'd swear
They'd never go anywhere
Where are you now?
Where are you now?
Cause I'm thinking of you
You showed me how
How to live like I do
If it wasn't for you I would never be how I am
If it wasn't for you I would never be who I am
If it wasn't for you I'd be nothing
Where are you now?

till then,
buzibee

Lima Benda

2009-12-17T22:20:00.000-08:00

5 THINGS THAT HAVE AMUSED/ ENTERTAINED ME DURING THE HOLIDAYS

Before I say anything else, I have been very bored this holidays, so the simpliest things have entertained me...Just so nobody thinks I am a weirdo...

1. FACEBOOK
As everybody knows, I have now only gotten facebook. The amounts of things that go on and to keep up with everyone is just so overwhelming for me...

2. MALAYSIAN FOOTBALL TEAM

Can you believe that we actually managed to get a gold in football in the SEA Games? It just goes to prove that MALAYSIA BOLEH! I am so proud of them.

3. JJ and EAN's VERSION OF MEET ME HALFWAY( Black Eye Peas)

They actually made fun of Tiger Woods in this song. I couldn't help smiling to myself listening to it.

4. THE SMALL LITTLE GIRL

While I was watching The Princess and The Frog, there was this small cute little girl behind me who kept on laughing( very cutely) during the whole movie. So adorable!

5. 2012

The movie was simply AWESOME!

TTFN, Buzibee

lets just face it...holiday just more stressful!

2009-12-16T18:20:00.000-08:00

ok so whr do i begin...alot happened this holz...as day passes by the stress ggets more n more ni..its like the past n present haunting me.. too much been happenin n whom do i complain to? nobody! haiz...sos pls...

vry dilemma, BLONDE

Attention

2009-12-16T01:08:00.001-08:00

ok...i noe...we had some confusion about the sleepover thing..so i would like to finalize everything... its not this friday anymore as buzzibee is bz (duhhh)...hehehe...i decided that it would be next week
reasons:
*lisha just came back from genting
* abi not bz already
*theeba is free on weekdays
* ratna n me are always free...kan?

details:
date:
23 and 24 december 2009
venue:
u all noe the plan rite?
place to meet:
my house 1st...then we move
transportation:
sendiri bayar la... unless lishgates nak sponsor...hehehe
more question:
call me..

can't wait
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the time of my life!!!!!

2009-12-10T05:43:00.000-08:00

so yea... yesterday me, abi, aina, lisha, hakim n nithi went to mid valley to PARTAY.. spm just

finish...like seriously, i cant even believe its over! its vry sad... i always loved school(ignore the

time i sleep in class whn teachers are too borin).. hmm, so anyways we watched 2012..its a

wonderful movie, its like THE must watch movie.. i cried watchin that movie and pity nithi, once

again have to see me cryin while watchin movie.. haiz. it really makes me wonder, what if this

really happens? wad if world gona end tomoro and u fight wid ur mum today... its rather a vry

sad thing..why dun we all treat each other nice thinkin that world mite end any time, with this

thr wun be any heartache whn the world actually comes to STOP! anyways, moving on to the

best part of yesterday is, the time i spent with my frens n nithi.. lisha, abi n me, we just had so

much fun changin and takin pic in the dressin room.. we were goin nuts.. we were actually

camwhorin! ok thn, i picked up this vry nice baju for nithi at romp... for the love of my god, u

wouldn't even believe that, nithi looked so SMOKINNNN HAWT... ok thn we buy baju d.. we

walked around n all.. thn in movie, it was so nice to lean on nithi n hold his hand n watch the

world 'endin' in front of my eyes in the movie! haiz... life is so funny, u living life whn watching the

ending of life... so bla n bla n bla. movie finish d thn balik lor.. but nithi n me went to buy

somethin first b4 chow. he actually bought me ring, the couple ring.. and like omg it cost rm35

per ring.. poor child paid 70 bucks all together n we even got our name carved in the ring...aww i

just love my nithi so much...seriously nithi, yesterday was the day of my life...and my girls thanx

so much, i had so much fun... i love u all...tc guys

in love, BLONDE...

plastic...anyone????

2009-12-05T15:50:00.000-08:00

me...:
*becoming more fake
*becoming more cold
*becoming more hard
*becoming more mean
* definitely more plastic

people who look down on my family...thx...one day i'll make sure that u respect me more than anyone else...

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pencil box terbang

2009-11-19T17:42:00.000-08:00

hik hik...bila teringat balik peristiwa ini, aku pasti tergelak sorang2...masa nak ambik bm paper 2, ujan turun dgn lebatnya....angin bertiup kencang....tup...pencil box ksygnku terbang melayang...btol...ia terbang...x caye tanya abi dgn ratna. dorang menjadi saksi....terbang dan akhirnya jatuh ke lantai...hahaha...time tu nak gelak kuat2 x bley...tgh exam...lps exam puas aku gelak...hehe...geli hatiku...nsb baik ada pgawas lalu n tolong kutipkan...kalo x, mmg aku disyaki meniru la..ouh tidak...i'm innocent cikgu...hikhik......tu lah aina...sape suruh nama kau ada 'a'kat depan...kan dah kena ddk depan...tepi loji shit lak tu...hik hik....

papepun...aku tetap cintakan sekolahku...

bye!!!

SPM...1 week 1 day!!!

2009-11-09T18:17:00.000-08:00

Been very busy lately...sorry for the unupdated blog...*sigh*...all of us are preparing 4 SPM...sorry...but we promise to post more stories N of course more

DRAMA!!!

lots of love,

A silver lining among the clouds, maybe?

2009-11-05T05:43:00.000-08:00

GOD! Why are we all emoing? Is this wat SPM does to you? Is it just SPM or the fact that...
I hate myself and my mind right now. I lost 4kg in 3 days. That is insane. I think I'm going into depression and my parents are super worried about me... When they ask me what's wrong, I don't know what to answer...Coz I myself don't know what's wrong...ARGHH!!!!

Aina, please stay strong and just remember not to hurt yourself because who am I going to call when I'm lost in this world? Talking to you and ratna, always cheers me up...

Ratna, I know it is hard to think positive and to act like everything's alright. But please, believe in yourself. You can do it! I know,right know,it feels like the world might just collapse around you but remember you are not going through this alone... And if you think you are not pretty, I'm sure there is at least one person out there who thinks you are( You know who I'm talkin about)...

Dear friends, I'm so sorry if I have ever hurt you and if I have not been there for you. Just know, that I didn't mean it and I am truly sorry.

Hopefully, our sleepover after SPM, puts everyone in the right mind and smiles back on our faces....

God! In all my life, I think this part has to be one of the worst or THE WORST time in my life.

But before I leave to dwell in my misery,I just want to let a certain someone out there know, that I KNOW YOUR NAME! And thank you for that, cause that has put a smile on my face( for a reason, that I too don't know)

What is wrong with me,
Buzibee...

why????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-11-03T04:25:00.000-08:00

i knw in my previous post i told my angels that they can do anything.. but sadly, i cant say that to me... spm is nearin... panic took over my mind.. now, i get upset and emo faster thn usual.but some of my frens dun get it... well, i

cant just sit down n pretend like ntg happen.. my life is so stress now, if my frens dun understand me, who else going to? why do some of my frens think that i am being vry emo so fast...well, i just wana say, IM STILL LEARNIN

TO SURVIVE WITHOUT BLADE! im gona need more time.. i will realy apprreciate if everyone would understand me... im nt like last time, i will be back to normal, after the blade take in charge.. im learnin now, and

dun u all, ,my frens to live without it? i need all ur understandin and support along the way... and pls dun tell me bout my food. i knw im wastin food, so i dun eat and thn u guys still scold me.. its like if i eat or no also i kena scoldin

or sayin frm u all...why dun u all understand? and u all think im insane to starve myself to look thin.. well, its important for me... i wana look think n pretty next to my sisters... i knw my frens all, dun have this prob cuz all of u

all look like babes.. but me no! its important for me, to score well in spm n look good and everything cuz all these gona help me build confidence... im nt sayin that u HAVE to be with me, my dear frens but at least leave me alone... i

need time. pls oh pls understand me.. i mite look vry sportin n all but im vry sensitive inside my heart...dun do this to me. PLEASE....

BY,

A VERY UPSET BLONDE

i'm emoing

2009-11-01T20:48:00.000-08:00

2 weeks b4 spm...i am really emoing...i'm losing weight...my tutor said i lose my chubbyness...n i just fought with my #$%^ sista... thx to ratna 4 being there 4 me... lets read wat we fought about

me: can u plz clean the kitchen b4 mummy comes back...karang mama mgamuk
$%^#: ok, i'll do it.
..............
daddy: seluar sape ni?
me: $%#@ pants. it was there, on the sofa, 4 a while
%$#@: ko asal? baru wat kerja umah skit nak merungut
me: aku malas ar nak gado dgn ko sbb ko PREGNANT
$%#@: asal lak aku pregnant x bley gado?

............c? dia yg nak gado dulu... prg bsr pun bermula....

me: ko taw x, ko balik umah, ko buat umah ni mcm hotel taw x? ko balik kerja dgn suami ko, taw makan, naik atas, pastu tido. ko ingat mama tu apa? kuli ko pe?
$%^#: eh, aku ada tolong ek... ko igt ko sorang je tolong
me: hek taik idung ko la, ko tolong. sampai baju suami ko pun baba yg tolong ampai n lipat ean...
$%#@: dah aku krja, aku x de kat umah, mane sempat aku wat. agypun aku x suruh pun baba wat.
me: ko mmg. krja kat umah ni jgn arap la ko nak wat
$%#@: masa ko kecik dulu, sape yg wat suma ni. aku pun spm la. tp aku wat suma tu

.....in my thoughts 'ko ambik arts...mmg la bahalol, suma ko blaja kat arts bley apply kat dapur...' aku ambik science...

#$%@: mama siap pukul aku agy... ko nasib baik taw ko x kena
me: ko kuang ajar mmg la ko kena pukul. cuba ko baik mcm aku, surenya x kena...hahaha...n tu nasib aku ar...ko je yg malang...
$%#@: skrg ni nsb ko la yg kena balik
me: asal lak? nasib aku n i wont make it happen...i'm not like you...

bla....bla...bla...byk adengan censored....maap..hehehe

bro: dah2. x nak wat sudah.
me: masalahnya bkn soal nak wat ke x nak wat... mama balik2 mrh2.
korang x taw. aku dgn kokyah slalu kena taw x? korang taw balik umah makanan dah tersedia ada. x yah pk nak msk pape. pdhal aku dgn kokyah slalu kena pk apa korang nak mkn. aku gila taw x kena mrh je...gila!!!( dis time i really shout n cried...i really felt like killing that $#@^ bitch)
$%#@: BGUSLA...hahaha
me: wei...ko bla la dr umah ni... X TAHU MALU!!! dah khwn setahun...dah nak ada anak...tp duduk agy umah mak bpk...xtaw malu lgsg
%$#@: asal aku lak nak kena bla...bkn ko ke slalu ckp ko x suka ddk umah ni...g la lari
me: ko la bla...
#$%@: ko g la BUNUH DIRI sekali...kalo dah gila sgt
me: jgn cabar aku
$%#@: wat la... make sure ko mengucap dulu sblm mati...

....................... i ran into my room n slammed the door...
n i cal ratna....thx hun

jika anda lihat situasi ini, saya mcm kena histeria...btol...x tipu...i was shouting smpai jiran sblah pun bley dgr...
ni kerana saya sgt tension akan SPM.. i really changed. i dont really talk that much but when i talk, u wish u never met me..hak!!

n to my #$@! bitch sista...thx 4 all dat...if u want me to kill myself, FINE!!! i'll do it but i make sure i kill u first...

signing off: DQ

FINALLY!!!!!

2009-10-26T22:02:00.000-07:00

ok so first of all, my true and sincere apology to all of u all....i knw it most be borin that there was no DRAMA in the blog.... but no worries, sweet hearts, the BLONDE is back with more dramas.. ok so whr shall i begin.. too many things happen and now ni i bloggin...haiz haiz... actually i wana talk bout my baby now...but i feel like i need to show my supports to my wonderful frens.. my baby can wait(sry nithi)... so wads wrong wid abi n aina??? am i missin out something u guys... well, heres something to make my angels happy..no matter wad happen, im always here for u guys so dun be sad k...

remember dat day, whn we were playin true or dare thingy thn ended up confessin stuff.... that day was just so touchy...believe it or not i cried after coming back home.. i was just so touched by the fact i have true frens who got my back..

abi- u r a wonderful gril who can do wonders in this world, there is a lot to be learn frm u.. u are an inspiration girl, always going around wid positive thoughts.. its hard to be positive all the time, but u make it a habit to be positive... and abi, thnx for always saying 'ratna, think positive la, u wun fail'... you believed in me..thanx

aina- haha, wad am i to say... whenever i look at you, i feel more brave.. you are a girl wif problems like me, but u dun let these things to bring u down, at least u dun cut urself like i do! each time i look at you, i just admire your braveness and how you still excel in studies.. you are always thr whn a fren needs you, you dun let abi or me down.. you teach me stuff whn i am so blur. not only that, u care for me too.. its a gift to have u and abi as a fren...

i still remember whn u two come visit me in hospital..it was so good, i mean i wish i could jump out of the bed and hug you all that time... i was that happy... it was like, whn i need all the support i can, u two were thr.. and the time whr u two, snatched away my cold drinks! haha, u two were so concerned for me.. im seriously thankful to god, for giving me frens like you..i will always love you two(yaya, i love u too, nithi, dun get jealous)... best frens forever! girl power rule!!!!!!!!!!!

by,BLONDE..

Why

2009-10-15T00:07:00.000-07:00

Why do you think those who you can trust betray you?
Why, if they care so much do they leave you and go?
Not only go but go and have fun without you
They call themselves, whatever they call themselves
and leave you to believe that they will be there forever

But once they are gone, they do come back
But the distance apart
has made me more aware of the true colours that lurk underneath
but deep down inside
I want to believe that they truly will be with me
But hurt is painful and may never heal
But why is it happening to me?

Whispers I'm never allowed to hear
Secrets I'm never told
Why, is it because of who I am?
Is it because I'm like this
that hate is brought upon me by those I care for or try to care for
Then, why do they promise and break that promise
why do they promise to go have fun with you
but change the plan to fit their need

Why do they plan these things weeks and weeks before
but then change it and never even bother to ask if you can go
or if it even is okay with you when they go out without you

It is okay that they change their plan
and it is truly okay that they go without me
but why can't they just say a single sorry
to make everything better

I wanted to speak my mind, many a time
but I just couldn't because I cannot hurt the bond we share
Why can't I break the bond like they have?

My opinion is just as important as theirs, right
but I just couldn't let out my feelings
I'm just calm because I dare not let out my feelings
I don't know why...
but...

-Buzibee-

i dont want to be emo...but u made me...

2009-10-08T18:45:00.000-07:00

this month...
i'm really emoing...
only the closest friends knew my condition...
this month i loss 5kg
next month?
i dunno...

i dont feel like eating anymore...
every time i c food, i feel nausea...
i tried to ask 4 help from my loved ones...
but...
people change...
i may look happy on the outside...
but inside...only God knows...
pray 4 me plz...

where is this happy girl?

signing off...
DQ

New grading system

2009-10-04T03:27:00.000-07:00

I am here to release my frustration. Nearly a month away from SPM, our grading system has changed! URGHH!!! I had mentally prepared myself to get all 11A1's. But now, what am I supposed to get? All A plus or just A's or A minuses? * Screams*

I don't even know what is an A plus, A or A minus. Does this mean more people get A's or does this mean less people get scholarships? coz I need a scholarship...URGHH!!!!

If you have no idea what I am talking about, here is the article from STAR Newspaper...

New grade of A+ for SPM

PETALING JAYA: A new grading system for the Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia (SPM) will be implemented from this year.

Education director-general Tan Sri Alimuddin Mohd Dom said the change would provide a detailed breakdown of excellent candidates who obtained grade As in the examination.

“The change means there will now be a new grade of A+. Previously, the highest grade possible in the SPM was 1A,” he said in a statement yesterday.

Under the present system, students are graded as 1A, 2A, 3B, 4B, 5C, 6C, 7D, 8E and 9G while the new grades would be from A+ to G (see chart).

Alimuddin said the change was based on feedback from various quarters that the existing system did not provide a more detailed breakdown of excellent students.

“The change in the grading system will enable more qualified candidates to be chosen for training programmes and new scholarships, such as the one announced by the Prime Minister recently,” he said.

Prime Minister Datuk Seri Najib Tun Razak said in June that a new category of Public Services Department scholarships would be introduced next year based purely on merit, regardless of race.

Alimuddin said the Cabinet approved the change in the grading system last month.

“This will not affect the examination at all as it only involves a change in the grades given,” he said.

He said school principals have been directed to explain the new grading system to students sitting for the SPM this year.

There you have it... What am I supposed to do?
This is so distracting...Well, at least it is another excuse for me to be distracted from studying...
Which reminds me I should go back to studying...

In give or take a month, I will be sitting in a hall like this for my final school examination...

I wish I was back in Form 3...relaxing and having fun
Even though, terpaksa duduk for PMR that year, I had so much fun!

Or working backstage at the Jubilee Concert last year... We are such a bunch of posers
(From l-r : Sallini, Ratna, Aina, Abi and Lisha)

Until next time( whenever that maybe),
Buzibee

Lebaran 2009

2009-09-24T22:29:00.000-07:00

raya...tahun ini...ok la. seperti tahun2 yg lalu...sekadar menyambut ala kadar sahaja...kerana malas utk menulis pnjg lebar dalam blog ni...saya telah menge'shot' beberapa gmbr utk anda semua..let the pictures do the talk...enjoy

ketika ramdhan al-mubarak

kedua-dua ibu n kakakku ditimpa kemalangan...teruk ean kereta dia? (x smpat nak ambik gmbr kereta ibuku)

Malam raya

ketupat...rendang...sila nikmati kawan.. (lagu anuar zain n elina)

sungguh mahal bouquet ini sehingga babah terdiam bila mama menyatakan harganya...

untuk para tetamu yg hadir

Di Hari Raya Aidilfitri

traffic jam pada pukul 5.00 pagi...

ouh...hmpr lupa di mane arah kampungku...

singgah di masjid yg cantik ini sekejap utk solat sunat hari raya aidilfitri...

inilah desaku yg tercinta...

bincang dahulu hndak ke mane...

ayok...kita bergerak

greenery...jalan ke halaman nek ngah ku...

nek ngahku sungguh gembira menyambut anak2 saudara dan cucu-cicitnya

sesi chit chatting/gossiping...hahaha

setelah kepenatan...TIDO!!!! gmbr ini hanya utk 13 above yeah...hik

memandangkan kami tidak boleh tido terlentang seperti cousin2 lelaki ku yg lain...
berlakulah kegedikan yg luar biasa...hahaha

setelah penat beraya di kampung...kluarlah kami ke bandar...(kakakku kebosanan)

lihatlah baju rayaku....dan kereta raya...hik

kami tiba di rumah je...my adorable kittens sedang bermain di sofa...ouh tidak!!!

Raya ke-2

kegedikan pasti berlaku
pintu pgr sudah tersedia utk kluar...silalah

abgku...ouh abgku

inilah nek tam saya...hik..

kegedikan mula menguasai diri...hahaha

di rumah mak long...

look at the camera plz...

kenapalah gmbr ni sgt blur...

jeng jeng jeng...family tree sedia berkhidmat utk mengingatkan kembali ibuku yg sudah lupa akan asal usulnya...malu je mama kena mrah dgn anak buah...hikhik

ouh...manjanya

sempat menggedik di ruang halaman pak cikku...hikhik

itu sajela yg smpat ku rakam utk tatapan anda semua...
minx maaf ye kalo gmbr blur...
camera ku bermasalah skit...
anyway

SELAMAT HARI RAYA
MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN kepada SEMUA

2009-09-17T00:39:00.001-07:00

Does anxiety kill?
Does waiting for something kill?
Of course, but
curiosity killed the cat...

buzibee

like n dislike

2009-08-23T18:33:00.000-07:00

in dis entry i am going to write about things
dat i LIKE and DISLIKE
this is because so many ppl had irritated me n
i feel like the WORLD(sounds like mawi..hahaha )
prlu tahu apa yg terpendam di
dasar,
lubuk,
dalam,
hati kecilku ini...

LIKE
*saya suka seorang yg sgt humble and sabar dgn saya...
kerana saya seorang yg x sbr lgsg
i have no patience at all
'nada'
'zero'
'illek'

*saya suka makan TOMYAM di sri melaka
ya Allah sedap nye menusuk
ke HIDUNG
hehehe
sgt pedas
and saya suka sgt sgt...
me n my sister mmg hantu tomyam ni...
sgtlah menyelerakan

mira: aina, kerja ar kat sini...bley curi secret recipe tomyam dorang
aina: you think they are dat dumb ar...mestinya aku kena mop lantai daripada masuk kitchen...
mira: ckp je la mls nak kerja ean? harap duit babah jek
aina: well, u noe me...

*saya juga suka warna purple and pink
i dunno why...
maybe bcoz i'm a girl...duhhh..

*rite now i'm in the phase of nak shopping je...
btol
dari ari tu lagi
i told ratna nak g shopping...
the problem is
NO MONEY!!!!
terpaksalah BERPUASA utk menahan shopping...
kesian...*sob sob*
but i'll tell u wat i want actually
i want

this shoe (the one that i saw that day was purple)
this shade (i cant wear round sunglass)

*last but not least, i like no 7

the FAMOUS number...
no keramat yg sentiasa dinantikan oleh peminat bola sepak...

DISLIKE
*i hate WAITING
serious my dad prnah lambat menjemputku dari sekolah...
hanya berapa minit lambat sahaja dan
saya telah membebel to my poor daddy dari dalam kereta sampai balik rumah...
ohhhh...tidak!!!
inilah perkara saya paling benci di dunia ini...
i hate waiting 4 sumone
to reply my text,
and even hate waiting for the Q in the LOO
so plz ppl... dont let me wait....

*i hate to makan UBAT
semasa saya kecil,
i really love to eat medicine...
apabila sakit je...
semua macam ubat habis ditelan
tapi sekarang mak ai...
PENGECUT!!!
ubat skecil 0.5cm diameter pun susah nak telan
ini kerana saya terikut ikut kakak ku yg fobia makan ubat...
dia lagi susah...
mama kena bancuh ubat letak dalam
ICE CREAM!!!
just imagine the taste... hahaha

k la... i think its long enough anyway... just nak letak my sis wedding photo...
can u spot me?

like i said...i love PURPLE!!!

Love: Drama Queen

Skandar Keynes

2009-08-22T03:09:00.001-07:00

hey ya!

Since Drama Queen and Blonde wrote about their dearly beloved(who don't know they exist), I shall enlighten you'll with Skandar Keynes fabulous life...(or at least what is posted on the net)

Name: Skandar Amin Casper Keynes
Date of Birth: September 5th 1991 ( he is also oni 1 yr older than me...so don't brag, ratna)
Born: London, UK
Hair Colour: Dark Brown
Eye Colour: Brown
Height: 5″8
Mother: Zelfa Cecil Hourani
Father: Randal Keynes
Siblings: Soumaya (older sister, she has appeared in a Radio 4 adaptation of His Dark Materials in 2003 )
School : Anna Scher Theatre School ( 2000-2005)

He is distantly related to Anne Boleyn. How cool is that? I am distantly related to...

He hopes to be a doctor( just like you, aina)

Can ride a horse.

Has a green belt in tae kwon do.

Was banned from eating sugar products on set during the filming of The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe due to hyperactive tendencies.( doesn't this remind you of somebody, ratna?)

His ideal place to live would be “some really cool place in the Pacific Ocean or the South of France or Spain. Somewhere hot and by a beach. ” *...I live near the Pacific Ocean!!!

He landed the role of Edmund Pevensie in the film adaptation of C.S Lewis’ The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe (2005) and was the last of the Pevensie children to be cast.Unlike the others who had all endured an 18 month long casting process, Skandar was cast within just a couple of weeks ( See, he was so incredible, aina...not just a stupid actor).

Love, buzibee

DEv PaTEL

2009-08-21T20:01:00.000-07:00

so since aina wrote about her SYEIKH... i am gona write bout my DEV PATEL.....(sorry abi, he belongs to me oni!) dev is so irresistable and everyone knws dat. and at least he oni 1 year older thn me unlike urs aina.... hmmm i at least gt chance to be wid him, if he breaks up wod dat freida! i seriously dun get it why her? she cn b his akka la! aaiyo guys nowadays? find la someone younger.... so all i hv to wish for is hmmm....er...mmm.... he will break up? sry la, bt he just so HOTTTT u knw? so about dev:

Dev Patel was born on 23rd April 1990 in Harrow, London to a Gujarati family. His parents are Anita Patel and Raj Patel who is an IT Consultant. He studies at the Longfield Primary School and Whitmore High School. He got graded a C in GSCE Drama.Dev worked towards a blackbelt at the Rayners Lane Academy of Taekwondo and won the bronze medal at the Taekwondo World Championship held in Dublin, Ireland.His career as an actor took off in E4 channel’s Skins on British teens. He played a British Pakistani teen Anwar Kharral....

so we all knw dev got famous through slumdog... so i dun hv to say more... btw, for thpse who gt facebook and loves dev, join dev's fan club...okiez... we love dev but he shud only be mine..haha

chiowz, BLONDE...

SEVEN WONDERS

2009-08-20T19:54:00.000-07:00

Thought I'd educated everybody on the 7 wonders of the world. Yes, I am that bored.

The origin of the idea of seven wonders of the world dates back to Herodotus (484 BC – 425 BC) and Callimachus (305 BC – 240 BC), who made lists which included the :

Great Pyramid of Giza,
Hanging Gardens of Babylon,
Statue of Zeus at Olympia,
Temple of Artemis at Ephesus,
Mausoleum of Maussollos at Halicarnassus,
Colossus of Rhodes and
Lighthouse of Alexandria.

Only the Great Pyramid of Giza is still standing. The other six were destroyed by earthquake, fire, or other causes...

So, here are the NEW 7 wonders of the World...

THE COLOSSEUM IN ROME

The Colosseum or Roman Coliseum, originally the Flavian Amphitheatre , is an elliptical ampitheatre in the center of the city of Rome, Italy, the largest ever built in the Roman Empire.

The GREAT WALL OF CHINA

The Great Wall of China is a series of stone and earthern fortifications in northern China, built, rebuilt and maintained between the 5^th century BC and the 16^th century to protect the northern borders of Chinese Empire from Xiongnu attacks.

INDIA' S TAJ MAHAL

(That's my sister and I at Taj Mahal)

Being the only wonder of the world I've been too, I know why it is a wonder. It feels like you are in heaven or Taj Mahal was dropped from heaven.

The Taj Mahal is a mausoleum located in Agra, India, built by Mughal Emperor Shah Jahan in memory of his favorite wife,Mumtaz Mahal.

PETRA IN JORDAN

The site is featured in films such as: Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade, "Arabian Nights", and Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen. How cool is that?

BRAZIL'S STATUE OF CHRIST THE REDEEMER

Christ the Redeemer is a statue of Jesus Christ in Rio de Janeiro, Brazil. The statue stands 30 metres (98 ft) wide and 38 metres (120 ft) tall with its pedestal. It weighs 635 tons, and is located at the peak of the 700 metres (2,300 ft) Corcovado mountain in the Tijuca Forest National Park overlooking the city. It is one of the tallest of its kind in the world.

PERU'S MACHU PICCHU

Machu Picchu was constructed around 1462, at the height of the Inca Empire. It was abandoned less than 100 years later. It is likely that most of its inhabitants were wiped out by smallpox.

MEXICO'S CHICHEN ITZA PYRAMID

The Maya name "Chich'en Itza" means "At the mouth of the well of the Itza." This derives from chi', meaning "mouth" or "edge", and ch'e'en, meaning "well." Itzá in Spanish is often translated as "Brujas del Agua (Witches of Water)" but a more precise translation would be Magicians of Water.

Going to be another wonder of the world,
Buzibee...

About saya...

2009-08-20T16:53:00.000-07:00

warghhhh!!!

byk prkara yg telah berlaku pada masa yg singkat ini...
rasa sekejap sahaja
saya membesar
dan akan membesar...*wink*
rasa rindu sgt time kecil2
main
EMAK-EMAK
hahaha..
seperti biasa i'll be the mum...
holding teddy
in my arms...

tp semua itu sudah tiada
*sob sob*
i miss those days...
dan perkara2 itu membuatkan saya menangis
mengenangkan masa lampau

saya juga berasa sedih
kerana
ayah saya akan menukar kereta nya...

kereta itulah yg menghantarku ke sekolah
selama 8 thn
tanpa pnt lelah
dan kereta itu sgt senang
diSPOT
dari jauh...
kerana warna
HIJAU menyala
cpt saya menTRACK babah pastu blk umah awal...hehehe

tetapi
disebalik itu...
tersembunyi kegembiraan
wat is it?
Kucing ku telah beranak!!!!
not
3
or
4
but
6 KITTENS!!!
yg sgt
COMEL
GUNDHU
CHARMING

u name it
they are lovely

*maaf ye...baru sedar dalam komputerku tiada 1 pun gmbr kucing yg menetap dirumahku

saya x sbr nak bermain dgn nya
i noe abi will say: dont let aina near them...u nvr noe wat she'll do to them
arghhh
saya x peduli itu semua...
yg penting anak kucing
yg ada tompok OREN itu milikku
muahahaha

k la...
i gtg

b4 dat...

SELAMAT BERPUASA TO MUSLIMAN dan MUSLIMAT
moga ramadhan ini akan membawa beribu nikmat kepada anda

LOVE: DRAMA QUEEN

lets CHEER up!

2009-08-19T22:41:00.000-07:00

ok so maybe the atmosphere gt a lil more emo thn it shud be... so lets change topic k? so today is good, SO FAR.... hmm did chemistry in the morning though. din go school! gt H1N1 la, apa nak buat. so i tak ponteng k? so chemistry was

drivin me a lil crazy in d mornin. all d equation and calculations.... oh man, i wonder how the chemists came up wid all dis weird terms and reactions... hmm, later have to do add maths pula. damn sien la... trials so near bt i still like so extremly vry de' BLUR... well blur and me come in one package la, apa nak buat kan...lagipun this yea, SPM vry

long, drag until december... tak cun langsung la! sekarang H1N1 lagi thn tambah dengan exam tension, i GONE la... buzibee and drama queen no need to worry la. mereka kan the smart ones.. bukan macam i.. selalu tanya mereka,

apa cikgu cakap ni. ALAMAK LA! so ok ok... we gt to cheer up nw. so nvm la, kita kan pro dalam panic exam

preparation. so lets all cross our fingers and do ur best...okiez?

signin offfff, BlonDE!

u letting me GO???

2009-08-19T08:16:00.000-07:00

i was just joking to see the truth....and u r ready to let

me go? aren't you gona hold? aren't you gona lock me

up to u? u never liked me in the first place ar? so u dun

mind lettin me go? i just wanna tell please dun let me

go! please ask me to STAY....

By, BLONDE

Nothing else to do

2009-08-15T20:09:00.000-07:00

This is wat we did during our BM period...when we were actually supposed to be learning....

Drama Queen : Sheikh Muzshaphar Syukor rocks!
Buzibee : Skandar Keynes is the BEST!
Drama Queen : No way...He(Skandar Keynes) is such a loser. Stupid actor...At least Sheikh went to space and is an astronaut...
Buzibee : Sheikh is a bigger loser. He isn't even an astronaut. He just went to space...
Drama Queen : WateverLA! Did Skandar go to space?
Buzibee : He might go to space and at least he is around my age not like 17 years older!
Drama Queen : HELLO!!! He is just an actor. My darling is a model, doctor, businessman and astronaut!!!
Buzibee : Wtv! At least, mine is down to earth...Yours is so showoff...
Drama Queen : HELLO!!! How do u noe yours is down to earth? At least, Sheikh is MALAYSIAN, ok!!
Buzibee : Whatever! Like u said, Love has NO Boundaries...
Drama Queen : Yeah! I noe both of us won't get our dream guy!!!

Now... the sibuk Blonde had to say something...
Blonde : DEV is BETTER! I LUV Dev Patel!

And the only sensible one amongst us had only this to say...

FAZLIA : Crazy People!

signing off,
Buzibee...

Evil Guna!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-08-15T03:14:00.000-07:00

you are so so so so so so so so mean! i am trying to be nice here and you are being

mean! yes i do like to bully you but at least i say SORRY! but you, couldn't even

be bothered to be nice... i hate u(10000000000000 times).... so much for me to

spend time online talkin to u?! first u call horse tail, thn lil kid thn wad sumore u

wana say?! at least i just called u donkey. u jerk! i was tryin to be nice and you!

and now also u so rude to me? i cnt believe i wanted to be fren wid u. thats it, i've

got brain. i dun wan a fren like u in my life...... so much for me for thinking u r a

nice guy! bye. i never wana talk to u again! BYE!

by, blonde

CoulDn't BE a better DAy!

2009-08-15T01:38:00.000-07:00

so now lets see......few of my...wait...most of my post was like so extremly emoooooooo(not my fault, blame the PERSON). but today, no more emo emo all. today iim sooooo vry happppyyyy.......although i cnt talk today at all(gt stupid ulser la. damn pain...sob...sob). so wad should i say? where should i start? actually, i dun knw wad to say....i am so happy until no words to describe wad happen. tqtqtqtqtqtqtqtqtq.

love,blonde

SIGNS are shown already.....

2009-08-13T09:22:00.000-07:00

wad can i say...

the sign is shown already...

but what awaits as...

the result of the sign is...

broken heart...

not that i never knew the truth...

but...

heart refused to accept...

maybe the hope set was too high...

it resulted in broken heart...

but...

why..

did he have to be nice to me???

however...

i asked for the sign...

so i will pay for my past now...

by,

broken blonde

FakE taLKs...

2009-08-13T00:05:00.000-07:00

everytime I talk to you...

heart flutters with thousands and thousands of butterfly

but

deep in a corner of it

evil scarying voices threatening

it says that the dream is ONLY a dream

but

when i wake up

it doesn't seem like a dream

in fact it felt

GREAT, AWESOME, INCREDIBLY

honestly

no words can describe it

but

today i realized

dreams are dreams

all his words

all his laughter

all his jokes to make me laugh

it was just words

it meant nothing

nothing for him

but it meant everything for me

more than everything

all the fake talks u had with me

was not fake for me

it was more than real to me

what do i have to do

to make this real for you too

do i have to be fake

do i have to change myself

will you take this for real than

i will change if that is what it takes

please show a sign that

this could be real for both of us

and

not

FAKE!!!

i love you with all my

HEART

LOve,

BlonDe

Sheikh Muszhaphar Syukor

2009-08-05T22:43:00.000-07:00

Recently,

i read a book...
Menggapai Bintang..
by .....
*drum roll*
Sheikh Muszhaphar Syukor

thanks to Puteri

This book is so inspiring...
REALLY!!!
i was amazed by the pictures...
hehehe...(abi knows the story)

Anyway,
In the book...he wrote...
"Kehidupan bukan sekadar mencari pasangan hidup, berkahwin, mendapat anak dan menjadi tua. Seseorang mestilah mempunyai TUJUAN hidup"

Btol X?

I quickly told my sister...

Me: Hey, check this out...(showing what he said)
Mira: Eheh, ye la...betul apa yg dia ckp tu..
Me: I know!!! it's true kan? Orang kita selalu ckp psl KAHWIN jek...
Mira: Pdnla dia x kahwin lagi...hehehe
Me: Hampeh btol hang ni!!!

It's actually true wat he said..
ye la...
ppl always thought of having a grand wedding and marry the LOVE of their life...
but actually
there are more important things to do instead of getting married...
of course...
different people have different perceptions...
but u see...
life is at the fullest when u get to achive sumthing that will make ppl proud of u
and ppl will respect u for that?
sumting for u to ponder

NOW
i'm so bersemangat to sit 4 my SPM...
that's the spirit Aina...!!!

this book also made me think of wat are my Goals in life...
kalau x de TUJUAN, arah mane kita nak lalu...
btol x murid-murid?
hehehe

so i listed out my goals...
x de la banyak mane...
tp sekadar menaikkan semangat untuk mendapat 9A1 dalam
SPM...
its enough...

HERE GOES

MY goals in life...

1
Be a DOCTOR
(Insya-Allah)
Do u see me in this position????

2
Must join MERCY M'sia
(i want to feel how the people there suffered)
wat if we were in this position?
saya x cukup kuat utk menghadapinya...

3
membahagiakan ibu bapa saya
(take care of them)

4
be a calm, sensible, and happy person

"when we were small, it's a must to dream...
when we grew, it's a must to fulfill the childhood dreams"
-Aina-

that's all by now....
i'll add more..
if it strike my mind one day...

till then.....

Love: Drama Queen

Oklah?

2009-08-04T02:55:00.000-07:00

Haih...
Who knew writing about my future would be so hard? I mean seriously...
Oklah...It is hard writing about my career plans mainly because I HAVE NO CAREER PLANS!
Oklah...So, i have a rough idea of what I want to be...but I am sometimes fickled minded
Oklah...Most of the time I am fickled minded, so I can and may still continue to change my ambitions.
Oklah...I want to be a lawyer or an accountant...
Oklah...Most probably a lawyer but what kind of lawyer, janganlah tanya sekarang. there are way to many options to choose from.
Oklah...But what I really want to do as an individual is Save the world(Yeah, right!)...I just want to bring justice and save the innocent(God, I sound like Superman!)
Oklah...And I do want to work with the UNITED NATIONS and help bring the world closer to world peace
Oklah...It would be so cool to work at UN HQ...I can just picture myself working there...

That's the UN HQ!

Oklah...The other place I could picture myself working in is a courtroom...That would also be Cool!

I could be arguing there one day!

Oklah...I could also have a really cool office

I could be conducting board meetings here...

Oklah...I should stop dreaming about the places I could work in the future and pay attention to the present. Like focus on getting 11A1's in SPM...
Haih...

Buzibee...

love STORY

2009-08-01T07:57:00.000-07:00

We were both young when I first saw youI close my eyesAnd the flashback startsI'm standing thereOn a balcony in summer airSee the lightsSee the party, the ball gownsI see you make your way through the crowdAnd say hello, little did I knowThat you were Romeo, you were throwing pebblesAnd my daddy said stay away from JulietAnd I was crying on the staircaseBegging you please don't go, and I saidRomeo take me somewhere we can be aloneI'll be waiting all there's left to do is runYou'll be the prince and I'll be the princessIt's a love story baby just say yesSo I sneak out to the garden to see youWe keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knewSo close your eyesEscape this town for a little while'Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letterAnd my daddy said stay away from JulietBut you were everything to meI was begging you please don't go and I saidRomeo take me somewhere we can be aloneI'll be waiting all there's left to do is runYou'll be the prince and I'll be the princessIt's a love story baby just say yesRomeo save me, they try to tell me how to feelThis love is difficult, but it's realDon't be afraid, we'll make it out of this messIt's a love story baby just say yesOh ohI got tired of waitingWondering if you were ever coming aroundMy faith in you is fadingWhen I met you on the outskirts of town, and I saidRomeo save me I've been feeling so aloneI keep waiting for you but you never comeIs this in my head? I don't know what to thinkHe knelt to the ground and pulled out a ringAnd said, marry me JulietYou'll never have to be aloneI love you and that's all I really knowI talked to your dad, go pick out a white dressIt's a love story baby just say yesOh, oh, oh, oh'Cause we were both young when I first saw you

ScArEd 2 MOOve OONn....

2009-08-01T06:23:00.000-07:00

i am scared, literally scared...

i wana move on but wad if heart break awaits me...

it is the first time, my existence was realized...

but....

what if it is a misunderstanding...

what if i am over exageratin....

what if dreams stays dream....

what is the answer to my ques?????

should i move on....

if this is not a wrong move...

please show me a sign....

i will be waitin...

LOVE, BLONDE

PhySicos

2009-07-29T23:38:00.000-07:00

today...
we had our physics quiz... its called
NATIONAL PHYSICS COMPETITION 2009
impressive huh? all the schools had it on the same time... msk2 je bilik kuliah... kena mrh..
coz we were late... mane x nye... quiz starts at 9 we brtolak dr kelas pkl 9... x ke PANDAI.. kanak2 ribena la katakan
hehehe...

buka2 je the paper...
Ya Rabbi...
Mak Ai...
OMG...
Kardivallae
WO BU CHE TAO!!!!

anda taw?

contenganku yg amat FRUST time tu...

susahnya soalan...
soalan prtama..
keringat telah membasahi dahiku...
suara kecilku mengatakan...
Aina..U CAN DO IT!!!
smpai soalan ke 50
dah rasa mcm nak pengsan

dlm ati
pn salina
saya minx maaf la krn tdk menggunakan tnjk ajar ckgu..
ampunkan saya CIKGU!!!
hehehe

dan saya berasa amat malu..
krn kakak saya..
seorang DEGREE holder in physics...
tetapi adiknya...
ehem ehem...

my Nerdy sister (white tudung)

setelah 2 jam setengah saya menghentam KROMO
akhirnya,
brjaya menyiapkannya
FINISHTO!!!
wheee...

ada la...
yg bley dijwb...
yg x taw????
mengambil nasihat ustazah..(hik hik)
TAWAKAL!!!

tetapi lega hatinya apabila dah siap..
semua merungut susah BANGAT
KECUALI
SHIVA dan JOSEPHINE
the 2 smartest gurl in school

its ok...
everything will be alright...kan ABI???

k la..
out dulu..
till then...
Bubbye..

Love: Drama Queen

horse tail much?

2009-07-29T08:03:00.000-07:00

So, i was glad when i heard my existance was realized but being referred to as horse tail? i mean seriously how can my hair look like horse tail to u dudes.... i spent money on d hair u know.....btw, my hair is more attractive thn horse tail! well maybe i tie my hair like a horse tail but still, you guys couldnt come up wid something else? horse tail, you gotta be kiddin me.... like so kidding me u knw....so yea... but i'm glad i was remembered! so thanx anyways...

bubye,
bloNDE.....

the happiest day of my life.....

2009-07-29T07:52:00.000-07:00

okay..................so now i can strongly say, my life rock.... lunch wid my fav bro and my best fren was just so fun! first, we went to kfc, thanx to lisha cuz she came late. well, lets see at kfc, i totally make a fool of myself in front of vinod by saying weird and dumb stuff(u cnt expect much from blonde, can't you?) so yea... thn lisha came thn we went mamak.....

so at mamak! i was forced to eat... ok la i was starving but i din wana eat in front of d guy cuz i eat nt vry decent, u knw?? so thn some how, vinod ordered roti canai and i end up eatin. it was the first time i eat so slow and graceful. i managed not to drop my food but the stupid fork droped. it was accident ok!!!1 so annoyin... it was like so OMG much! than, we were juz lepakin dere and crappin, so much fun... oh!oh!, than vinod told us bout rusell peters(i din knw who he was at first). so thn vinod was tellin how he make joke bout the way chinese say noooooo. and lisha was being vry nice by sayin " oh like ratna la". and yea yea.... i was tryin todefend myself by saying no(in the chinesy way! holy crap)screw it la...so omg much...

i cannot really describe this day wid few words or one words.....its just so........WOW...
had so so so so so very much fun....thanx lisha...thanx vinod!!!! its so my day!

thats all, bye....chiowz
by,
BLONDE

Recess Adventure

2009-07-29T02:14:00.000-07:00

Being the very newly uninstalled prefects, we are still trying to adjust our lifes to living without the perks of being prefects. Among the advantages we lost is not being able to go back to class early after recess. The new prefects have a very tight system and it is proving difficult to enter class before the bell rings.

BUT being the smart people we(Drama Queen, Blonde and myself) are, we managed to find a flaw in their system and enter class at least 5 minutes before the bell rang. YAY, US!

But we did have some embarrasing moments along the way. First, we decided to try a certain staircase(I can't say which one, coz then next time our plan might not work) and we heard what we thought were some form 4 prefects. So, like criminals we quietly and quickly ran back down the stairs.

But then the so called smart Drama Queen realised it wasn't prefects and we decided to attempt our criminal act once again and we succeeded. Ha! We managed to find a flaw in, what Drama Queen says "V"s perfect system.
So, I guess it is not that perfect anymore!

Sorry, couldn't find a Yay Us! Tshirt

Buzibee...

what is wrong with me?

2009-07-26T07:08:00.000-07:00

Why do I feel so guilty? I mean what is wrong with me? I hate this conscience in me. Why is this happening to me? Why me? Everyone around seems to not care. So, why should I care? I just felt like letting that out.

I have no idea wat to blog on.
Oh, how about my knight in shining hero?

who else could it be other than SKANDAR KEYNES...
he is so good looking and very charming...

no idea what to do with my life,
Buzibee...

I'm a new person...

2009-07-25T18:25:00.000-07:00

very lazy to blog today
wtv it is
just want to let everybody noe,
dat i'm a new
reborn,
person today and the days that going to come.

signing off
Love: Drama Queen

there you go again...

2009-07-25T03:00:00.000-07:00

so yea, its pretty obvious frm de' title that history has repeated itself again...first was the womanizer and now de' football dude' do i look like heartless machine? itslike the story where the guy meets me, i fall in love wid de' guy and the guys turns his back to me and walk wid my fren...last time, when i first saw my fren at an event, i totally liked him already(duh, its just so me aite) thn for all i knw he liked my fren. its okay. i am so ok wid dat. well, i cant force a guy to like me aite... so im cool wid it but askin me to help wid d' gurl, dun u think its abit toooo much? well again, i was okay wid it and i helped. well, friendships are more important aite.... but now, the football dude'? did i ask about him? he de' one who asked my fren bout mua... i haven talk to him but i am sure he is just hittin on my fren and he probably wanted my help. as always! i know you guys probably thing i am being a lil' exxageratin but trust i have been there and done that so many time. so i dun have to talk to him in order to find out de' conclusion. so all i wana say is i dun care. after all guys are like a piece of cake, once you are done wid one slice thn you move on to the next... so i am movin on. byeeeeeee..... girlpower stay strong all de' way!

by, BLONDE...

bad luck or wat?

2009-07-24T05:04:00.000-07:00

this week mcm x prcaya je..
a lot of things
happened
yg baik
&
yg buruk...(mostly)
huhu
bacalah riwayat hidupku
dlm 1 minggu yg DISASTREOUS ini
muahahaha

MONDAY
Prefect supposedly kena stayback
for installation rehearsal
setelah abis skola, saya dgn kwn2 saya
yg sgt BERSEMANGAT attending
our LAST prefect meeting
terus menerus ke GALLERY.
stelah menunggu utk 1 jam lbih,
mereka(cant rememba who)
telah mengCANCELkan the meeting
oh...TIDAK
pnt saya menunggu
dan ramai telah mengeluarkan kata2 ehem ehem..

p.s. nasib baik puasa ari tu, kalo x, dah lama debate kat situ gak..hehehe

rachel x de kerja

TUESDAY
ini plg LAWAK...
laugh 1st..hahahaha
Pada hari itu...
my frens and i have to visit the
JABATAN KIMIA NEGARA
afta skool, we had lunch at skool canteen
n saya yg tetiba mkn lmbt ari tu,
terpaksa rush to the surau and apabila
kluar dari surau,
tgk2
WHERE IS EVERYBODY?
dah nak nanges time tu

nelfi: aina ada sorang budak td suruh u cpt smbhyg..dorang dah nak pergi
me: dorang dah pergi ke?
nelfi: x taw la, kosong jek canteen

saya pun ambil begku yg berat dan lari spnts yg mungkin
dan dgn lega hatinya trnampak
mdm shanty
"hurry up girl. everybody is waiting 4 u"
"yes teacher"(tercungap-cungap)

otw, to there(jln kaki)
hujan pulak..
AISYYYY...
peluh+pnt+basah= BUSUK
x pe la
dah name pun student

WEDNESDAY
basically
just stayback 4 Ping POng
be the judge 4 KARNIVAL SUKAN
exhausting sgt...

THURSDAY
dipanggil semula
utk print balik SEMUA
sijil2 my AJK
sedihnya...
afta the effort i threw in...

FRIDAY
dis is the day i'm stepping down as a prefect afta 8 yers
sad rite?
anyways,
we threw our bolero and had JAMUAN
and this is the day i fought with my dad..
Haisy...

dats the end of my school week

p.s. 2moro got kem ibadah at skul...MALASNYA...!!!

all the SENIORS...

sob...sob...

Love: Drama Queen

please help me.....

2009-07-23T07:52:00.000-07:00

today was definitly a pms-in day! actually this suppose to be my apologizing post to buzibee and drama queen. girlfrens i am so sorry i was upset the whole day in school. its just that i dun wana be call blonde all the time. i mean i knw u guys nvr mean it and its for fun but its kinda botherin me. i like it when u guys make fun of me being blonde but not always aite.... and i am not a looser aite? it is just that you guys know that i just started recoverin from my self-esteem issue. mr. yugen helped alot and now i am helpin myself and i need you guys help me along the way.... i am ok wid blonde but looser just send some kind of uneasy impulse to my brain. i am sorry guys... just seeking for your help, guys... i knw nobody can help me better thn you guys, thats why.... btw, i am not upset wid you two yea... you two are like part of myself...my besties. you guys rock, just help me please honeys... bye...love ya
BY, BLONDE

Lite Nite: Mosaics 2009

2009-07-21T04:11:00.000-07:00

hey ya...

Literary Nite was a BOMB! I don't care what others think but I thought it rocked. Maybe because I was involved working as the Stage Manager. Being a stage manager for the last 2 years, has been a one of a kind experience. The adrenaline rush and anxiety and urgentness of the moments backstage before the next scene or next act is unbelievable? Not sure how to describe it. When we reached the last scene of MOV, I was relieved that there would be no more rushing but I was also deeply saddened that Lite Nite was coming to an end and it is now over. The tenseness backstage, the praying,crossing my fingers the Mosaic banner will fall during opening act and how Theeba was scared of the props room : oh, the sweet,sweet memories.
Sadly,I am now currently readjusting my life back into reality(oh, the piles of school h/w I have to catch up with).I can't believe i won't be doing it next year. *SOB*SOB* Dancing to Thriller was embrassingly fun. The walk to A&W was a tradition and I am so lucky that I could do it in my last year at school. With the singing(that woke up the neighbourhood, I'm sure), the shouting of the crazy people(my friends ) and Ratna walking at least 1km in her blue saree is something I am not going to forget anytime soon.
And to the snobbish girl who questioned what are these kids doing here? Well, we were being an Assuntarian family and having fun and celebrating an exuberating show. BTW, we are not kids. I am sure you were our age. :)

TTYL,
Buzibee..

UNLICENSED?

2009-07-20T01:04:00.000-07:00

hmm so first of all, ola peeps...Today was a very nice yet tiring day! so much works to be done at school( thats a lie, i hardly did any work at school!). but i am still tired, maybe i talked to much..... it's just when i start talkin about unlicensed, i cant stop. the topic is unstopable! Unlicensed? hmmm, i am just angry at unlicensed. i mean why does he have to choose her, why not me! is he blind??????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????? i seriously dun understand, so what if i am not popular! i am still a girl and i am not a wanabe like her? oh my unlicensed, when will you realize me? wait do you know i am even existed?! hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.................. so what if you are richer, and you are famous? you are still a guy and you should be dating a good girl like me. don't you think so? it was so oh my gosh that day at lite nite when i saw you, unlicensed..... you looked so charming. believe it or not, my heart almost pop out when you appear in front of me! hmm did you like me in saree that nite? i really hope you will realize my existance, UNLICENSED! whether, you like me or not.... me likey you...YOU MITE NOT REALIZE ME BUT I WILL MAKE SURE YOU LOOK MY WAY, UNLICENSEDDDD!!!!!!!Muaxxxx =)

by,

BLONDE